It's good you write and have a sense of humor! Lord! Philosophically speaking, the Creator loves you and your character is being given a huge adventure in learning. From the human standpoint, that sucks! I recently had the doctor call with the serious news about a thingie on my thyroid, and it turned out to be nothing important after days of worrying. You have endured a lot!! You are "a veteran". Much strength and love be with ye through this!!.