Thanks for your honest article. It is helpful to me as I reflect, personally, and as I'm to do a presentation to people with PTSD very soon. What a horrible, brutal thing to experience, and what a loss!
I have experienced some moments that are similar to some aspects of what you have experieced and can relate to not wanting to see violence on TV now. I've never met anyone else that has talked about this and appreciate it. Someone who has been thre up close does not need to see it on TV. Keep singing.